Eat more bananas.

i keep getting cramps in my feet. toes to be exact. but now its moving to my fingers as well. operation boostpotassium level is now in progress. im getting bananas tomorrow at shaws-second coolest grocery next to wegmans.

thank You God for bananas. You are awesome.

loveyoubunchesbye! =]

Swing.

I see my sister sitting on a swing. She knows she needs to get off. Its time for dinner and daddy’s calling. But she keeps on swingin. Im the kid waiting at the doorway, becoming more and more frustrated by the minute with my sisters stubbornness. Why cant she just get off the swing? Doesn’t she know that the dinner is her favorite? A perfect summer meal: dry rub ribs, caprese salad, corn on the cob, and freshly baked bread, not to mention a little lemonada.

Eventually, one by one the small tears stream down my face- at first in frustration, but then Daddy tells her what He's made for her. She looks at Him, stops for a brief moment, touches her tiny toes to the dry dusty earth, and then picks them back up and starts swinging. My tears of frustration quickly turn to hurt. I want her to be with me! I want her to discover what it is that Dad made for us! Why does she keep swinging? Why doesn’t she want this? Is the swing better? Why does she keep swinging?  Why does she keep swinging?

 

I think I’ve discovered the deeper levels of compassion, sympathy, and empathy, and they aren’t always the most pleasant of emotions. It's opened my eyes to the love and patience of my Father on an entirely new level. 

 

1 Corinthians 13

Love

 1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Beloved.

Beloved.

Come back to me.

I want to be your everything.

Beloved.

Come back to me.

I want to be the air you breathe.

Beloved.

Come back to me.

Isn't wonderful how Jesus looks at every single one of us the same? I had a moment a few weeks ago where i was walking into the elevator to go up to my apartment, headphones in my ears as always, listening to my Unplugged playlist, and i heard these words in the deepest parts of who i am. the kind of authority that captivates, that brings you to your knees in submission yet simultaneously opens its inviting arms and welcomes you in, stopped me dead in my tracks. i remember exactly how my left foot, wet and soggy in my boots, was just about to hit the ground, and my right hand was stretched out to touch the little cicular button, and my nose was cold and runny, but somehow i always enjoy it. the Jeremy Camp's version of "Give Me Jesus" was just finishing up the picking pattern and he was singing the first line. and i heard my Father, King of all Creation, speak to a tender and discouraged heart-

Beloved. Come back to me.

it was the most unreal experience. 

i have felt, over the past few weeks (since ive been home from break), an incredible weight from a task that i feel like i'm not capable of completing. i came back from break, having realized the desperate need for fellowship in my life. but as the semester has continued, ive come to realize that He has placed iron in my life for sharpening, it's just not in the way i originally imagined. i'm not saying fellowship isnt needed-it is. and i have been blessed with an awesome church and a crazy Christian girl named Tara who i have an insane amount of fun with. 

but Jesus is so way cool. He decided that He was going to sharpen me in a different way. He has placed quite an array of people in my life. on fire Christians, Unitarians, hypocrytical Christians, Mormans, Athiests, lukewarm Christians, Bahai, new age experimentalists.... Honestly-name it. we're a very eccentric group thats for sure. and strangely, we all get along really really well. today, i had coffee with a friend who is Morman and we just talked. i took in all that she was telling me about her faith. it's so interesting. on saturday, with the help of prayer from people i love, i went to a Bahai meeting with Tara, and we sat through and asked questions periodically. i have never more been more encouraged in my own faith. i feel like one of the attacks on Christianity is that there is no logical explanation,or not enough black and white contrast, but after having all of these conversations with people, i have never felt or heard more gray areas in the fundamental questions of life. i feel like there is no more Black and White Faith than that of what i have in Jesus. 

so back to Beloved. Jesus only asks me to be near Him. to seek Him with all i am, and love Him with all i am, and give Him all i am. He was calling me back to Him and only Him, disreguarding life for a few moments. to give my Creator all of me-and when you think about it, how selfish is it that we wouldn't give our Creator all of us?

loveyoubunches=]

Stranger.

Well Hello there! 

How are ya? 

Amazing?

It's nice to fin'ly meet ya.

Chris August.

i have a knack for discovering sweet acoustic goodness music. its a talent ive discovered over time. 

so! i havent written in this little lovely for quite some time now. im finding that my time management skills are being challenged. if i do have free time i try to play guitar to try and improve my toddler level skills. it's been a slow and steady growing process.  i have quite an array of songs that ive written, and im recording a few this summer! the question is... should we try to make an EP? or just lay down a few really simple tracks-acoustic. what do ya think? 

at any rate, im insanely stoked, and nervous. im not quite sure if im up to par haha. it's going to be fun though. an entirely new experience =]

in the life category, i am doing so very well. Jesus has dealt me a pretty sweet deal the past few weeks. not to mention that the weather in insssaaaanely gorgeous this week!!! 60, blue sky,and the sunshine came to visit like it had been gone for years. naturally, it was a sundress day. =]

loveyoubunchesbye!!!