My name is Anna. I'm five foot, two inches tall, have brown hair, green eyes and freckles. i have an obsession with superheros and the color green, and quite recently, puggles. do you remember me?
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So, i basically didnt have internet all summer. Neat. but now i am here, back in Beantown, attending Bizerklee (as my Harmony teacher calls it), and enjoying the craziness life throws at me. or i guess the craziness Jesus throws at me. He's funny, you know. :)
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I've been reading a lot lately, fiction and inspiration, but currently i'm stuck on Erwin Raphael Mcmanus. he's a really great writer, transparent and entirely motivating. i'm reading his book "Chasing Daylight", about seizing the divine moment. God's been doing a lot in my life in that area lately. for example, a while ago i decided to read through and study the New Testament in it's entirety. well, i finished and decided, randomly (seemingly out of the blue but now i see it wasnt...) to read the book of Esther. heh. well, i didnt know it, but the book of Esther has a continual theme of courage in the hands of the Lord. its about knowing the Lord is good, trustworthy, and in control. the study note in my Bible for Chapter 4 verse 14 says this
"God is not specifically mentioned in the book of Esther, but it is obvious that Mordecai expected a divine deliverance. While the book of Esther does not mention God by name or title, His presence fills the pages. Esther and Mordecai believed in God's care, and because they acted at the right time, God used them to save His people.
When you face challenges in life, seek to know what God wants you to do, and then do it, confident that He will do His part. You dont know ahead of time how He will accomplish His will. Trust God and prepare to be surprised by the ways He demonstrates His trustworthiness."
I think He's saying, "Anna, look who I Am. I'm getting you ready for something, but you need to love me first." He's saying that sometimes, we dont need an ending. too often we try to be the writers of our stories. a lot of times actually. that makes faith entirely too comfortable. too often, we pray to our God, read His words, seek for answers, all while looking in a mirror. what about jumping of a cliff blindfolded? i think thats what faith is like sometimes. as long as we are with the Lord, seeking to know Him more, praying and reading His precious words to us, we can come to trust our passions and judgements a little bit more. God has brought me to a place where i don't think there is a right or wrong way to choose to go, but a Godly way. theres a sort of freedom and fearlessness that comes with that. and i am so exited about it. He's teaching me to let go. of everything really. to be able to seize the divine moment, live with courage and fearlessness, taking one step at a time through uncharted territories, splashing new colors each day on a fresh, blank canvas.
bottom line, live passionately. i want to see God's people living passionately, fearlessly, exitedly. life is love. be passionate. live with a guided fearlessness in the palm of His hands, and when you trace His footprints in the sand, RUN.
