Beloved.

Beloved.

Come back to me.

I want to be your everything.

Beloved.

Come back to me.

I want to be the air you breathe.

Beloved.

Come back to me.

Isn't wonderful how Jesus looks at every single one of us the same? I had a moment a few weeks ago where i was walking into the elevator to go up to my apartment, headphones in my ears as always, listening to my Unplugged playlist, and i heard these words in the deepest parts of who i am. the kind of authority that captivates, that brings you to your knees in submission yet simultaneously opens its inviting arms and welcomes you in, stopped me dead in my tracks. i remember exactly how my left foot, wet and soggy in my boots, was just about to hit the ground, and my right hand was stretched out to touch the little cicular button, and my nose was cold and runny, but somehow i always enjoy it. the Jeremy Camp's version of "Give Me Jesus" was just finishing up the picking pattern and he was singing the first line. and i heard my Father, King of all Creation, speak to a tender and discouraged heart-

Beloved. Come back to me.

it was the most unreal experience. 

i have felt, over the past few weeks (since ive been home from break), an incredible weight from a task that i feel like i'm not capable of completing. i came back from break, having realized the desperate need for fellowship in my life. but as the semester has continued, ive come to realize that He has placed iron in my life for sharpening, it's just not in the way i originally imagined. i'm not saying fellowship isnt needed-it is. and i have been blessed with an awesome church and a crazy Christian girl named Tara who i have an insane amount of fun with. 

but Jesus is so way cool. He decided that He was going to sharpen me in a different way. He has placed quite an array of people in my life. on fire Christians, Unitarians, hypocrytical Christians, Mormans, Athiests, lukewarm Christians, Bahai, new age experimentalists.... Honestly-name it. we're a very eccentric group thats for sure. and strangely, we all get along really really well. today, i had coffee with a friend who is Morman and we just talked. i took in all that she was telling me about her faith. it's so interesting. on saturday, with the help of prayer from people i love, i went to a Bahai meeting with Tara, and we sat through and asked questions periodically. i have never more been more encouraged in my own faith. i feel like one of the attacks on Christianity is that there is no logical explanation,or not enough black and white contrast, but after having all of these conversations with people, i have never felt or heard more gray areas in the fundamental questions of life. i feel like there is no more Black and White Faith than that of what i have in Jesus. 

so back to Beloved. Jesus only asks me to be near Him. to seek Him with all i am, and love Him with all i am, and give Him all i am. He was calling me back to Him and only Him, disreguarding life for a few moments. to give my Creator all of me-and when you think about it, how selfish is it that we wouldn't give our Creator all of us?

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